holiday or horribleDAY??

aiseh...
bosannya duk umah...nk keje tp kesihatan plak x mengizinkan....
knp la skrg nih kerap sgt jatuh sakit?? ade je habuk sikit, mula la asthma ni nk dtg... dulu x cmni pon...hurm...
dh duk umah, duit of coz xde...nk topup jgn harap la...nk msej sape la sgt kan??
nk msej dgn sipolan, dia jarang balas... credit aku,aku habis kan utk dia je...hahaha..puas hati....
erm...duit amik lesen terpaksa diberikan kt adik aku...adoiyai...smpai bila nk tangguh amik lesen nih?? huhuhu...
nk jugak merasa drive kereta sendiri...x perlu nk sakit hati tgk org pandang kita rendah giler sbb susah nk ke sana ke mari..tmbah2 plak, org yg aku care giler, x perasan pon yg aku cube buat n sediakan yg terbaek utk dia even aku xde kereta...hurmm....ini lah nasib....xde rezeki nampaknya...xpelah....sabar jelah buat mse nih..Allah nk uji kesabaran aku agaknye....insyaAllah kemudian hari senang...amin....

**cuti aku habis kan masa dgn membaca buku sains kesihatan dan buku agama...rse insaf kejap...huhu...jahil rupanya aku nih..byk yg aku xtahu rupanya...

it should be KLCC but....

lalalala...yesterday...i'm done with packaging my old notes...
i made a promise to meet someone...jeng jeng jeng...a new BFFFF???? 
we had breakfast together...i'm so hungry..huhuh..it's hard to see me ate like a big fat dragon..hahahah...i ordered roti canai n teh tarik..
around 10.40 a.m, we move to KL SENTRAL..as i told Mr.XOXO that i want to spend my time walking at KLCC park..since i never been there with public transport.. 
Then, when we arrived at the KL SENTRAL, he asked me, why don't we go to Genting Highland?
OMG!! Genting Highland?? since it was Thursday, I AGREED~!! hahahaha...then we bought tickets to Genting, RM17.20..
Pergh!!! 1 hour to be at the top..so sleepy while in the bus..*fyi, i always sleep no matter what if i'm in the bus or car..heheh..
No cable car! Genting Skyway is under construction until 22th of Oct 2011...so we ride the shuttle bus..
There is a lot of peoples at Genting Highlands..I thought during weekdays peoples would be less.. =.='
We just walking around the theme park..Eating goguma..Mr.XOXO also like to eat goguma..For that, I would love to reward him 3 goguma...means, he need to improve his attention towards me in order to get full 10 goguma.. :)
so cold there.. i just wore t-shirt with cardigan which is not enough to keep me warm..huhuh...
we enjoy seeing peoples as i asked him to walked around the park..upstairs,downstairs,up again..hahahahah...then,we saw the list for casino winner..pap!! i told him that i saw malay name there..Mr.ROZAMI..he won about 60k..OMG! others are chinese...talking bout chinese, it is hard for me to find malay or muslim peoples at genting highland..hahah...can count using fingers!  i noticed that peoples around kept looking at me sometimes..do i care??  there's lot of arabic peoples..i wish i had a chance to wear hijab! not for style but for myself..my pride..
As time goes by, it is near to the ending time we had together..We need to go home...
For Mr.XOXO, thanx for your quality time with me..I really appreciate it...U really tried to make me happy...
For our best moments, it is secret yaw!!! *so gedik lah nk bold2 nih.. hahahah....hope u enjoy also with me...that's all that i can afford to pleased U!
Going back home to the Northern region...it is my lucky day since I got the last seat!! *poyo*
at 11.30 p.m and i'll be gone...hope not forever.. wish can arrive there safely...i'll bring our moments together my dear frenz and mr.XOXO... :) i have something to say to u, The most precious gift you can give someone is the gift of your time and attention. 

it is all about quotes..

It's useless to show how much you damn care for that special someone when that person is too busy getting somebody's attention..

If you don't understand my silence, how will you understand my words?  


Top 3 rules in a Relationship: 


i) don't lie


ii) don't cheat 


iii) don't make promises that you can't keep




Why waste your time getting hurt by someone, 


when there's someone else out there waiting to make you happy?

A great relationship isn't when a perfect 


couple comes together, 


 but an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their


 differences. 

***damn! i am to crazy about this little monkey emoticons!!! sorry yaw!! hahahah...hope u enjoy looking at them like me~!! (~__^)

do your own caption..

this sucking  situation is happening rite now...BUT i hope we can be like the pic below... :)

happily ever after.. 

For boys out there, please read this...

Once you love someone. 
even after you move on,
it will always hurt to see them with someone else..  

Quote of the day...

SILENCE is a girl loudest CRY..

you know she is REALLY HURT when she start ignoring you..

aku wanita...

Betapa Berharganya Seorang Wanita

Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, malaikat datang dan bertanya,"Mengapa begitu lama engkau menciptakan wanita, Tuhan???"

Tuhan menjawab,"Sudahkah engkau melihat setiap detail yang telah aku ciptakan untuk wanita?" Lihatlah dua tangannya mampu menjaga banyak anak pada saat bersamaan, punya pelukan yang dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan kerisauan, dan semua itu hanya dengan dua tangan".

Malaikat menjawab dan takjub,"Hanya dengan dua tangan? tidak mungkin!

Tuhan menjawab,"Tidakkah kau tahu, dia juga mampu menyembuhkan dirinya sendiri dan boleh bekerja 18 jam sehari".

Malaikat mendekati dan mengamati wanita tersebut dan bertanya,"Tuhan, kenapa wanita terlihat begitu lelah dan rapuh seolah-olah terlalu banyak beban baginya?"

Tuhan menjawab,"Itu tidak seperti apa yang kau bayangkan, itu adalah air mata."

"Untuk apa???", tanya malaikat.

Tuhan melanjutkan,"Air mata adalah salah satu cara dia menunjukkan kegembiraan,kerisauan,cinta,kesepian, penderitaan,dan kebanggaan,serta wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan mempesona lelaki,ini hanya beberapa kemampuan yang dimiliki oleh wanita.

Dia dapat mengatasi beban lebih baik dari lelaki,dia mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri,dia mampu tersenyum ketika hatinya menjerit kesedihan,mampu menyanyi ketika menangis, menangis saat terharu,bahkan tertawa ketika ketakutan.

Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya,dia mampu berdiri melawan ketidakadilan,dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah pemenang,dia gembira dan bersorak saat kawannya tertawa bahagia,dia begitu bahagia mendengar suara kelahiran.

Dia begitu bersedih mendengar berita kesakitan dan kematian,tapi dia mampu mengatasinya.Dia tahu bahwa sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.

Allah S.W.T berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia, namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan."

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya. "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh."

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk menyokong suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu."

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,sosok yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

"CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT. HANYA ADA SATU YANG KURANG DARI WANITA,DIA SELALU LUPA BETAPA BERHARGANYA DIA..."

Wallahu'alam..............

REAL STEEL

yehooooooo~!!! finally i had chance to watch REAL STEEL...worth it to watch this movie over and over again..hohohoh...

I love to watch the scene where Max Kenton snatch the microphone and talked like an adult, challenging Zeus (the mighty undefeated robot) to fight with his robot, Atom..*meremenag bulu tengkuk I..hahah

Then, there is also sad scene in this movie..which this scene able to make me cry..huah3~

I'm watching this movie at Berjaya Times Square. GSC MAXX *for the 1st time ok!!!...really really really big!! Feel like having a lecture in the campus, sitting in a big crowd n focusing at the same point...hahahaha....

Pretty cold in the cinema but I have him that holding my hand and make me feel warm.. Although we always having fight and jealous, but i hope someday that this fighting will turn into happiness...cewah!! :P

let us take a look at the REAL STEEL poster...

and this is my fav actor in this movie~!!! goyo dakota!!! :D

and here is the soundtrack which make me crazy~!!!

How am going to finish my day in shah alam?? ermm...waiting for my brother to come..please la dear...cepat2 la cuti...uhuhuh..your sister want to holidayyyyyyy....!!! i dont have enough money to survive in shah alam anymore..aiyark!! X(

But..i think i want to start MAKE A REVISON..oke! i know..i know...while u were reading this statement guys, all of u were laughing or smilling...hahahaha...I want to do better in my sem 5..*every new semester i will say the same...huah3~ need to maintain 3.0 and above....huhuhuh...chaiyok2!!

All the notes from sem1 until now, i dunnow where to put..not enough space on the bookshelf...ermm..wondering to find a box but too expensive here..later going back home,will find one.. :)

Oke, no more nonsense writing here...thanx for spending your time!! hehe... :) bubye!

syukur...

Alhamdulillah...syukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana semester 4 telah berjaya diharungi dgn penuh suka duka bersama2 rakan yg lain dgn hati yang cekal.. :)

Tiba masa untuk merehatkan minda selama sebulan...belajar keta...belajar keta..huhuh...

kena yakin utk drive! i need to survive in shah alam!! yeah!

A new chapter of mylife this new coming semester!

Waiting for miss Kiwiberry and Mr.Heaven to the northern region!! U r MOST welcome my dear n my dear!! heheheh...

that's all for today!

MOOD : alone at rent house..ceh!

oh yeah! i'm happy!!

ok,no more sad sad sad n sad entry.. :)

after been tarbiah by Mama n a bit from Tigerlily's big cat, now i'm more confident with myself!

with supporting frenz with me - miss Gigibesi, Heaven, Kiwiberry, TigerlilY...

thanx guys coz make my day cheerful... thanx for the support..*dedicated to miss gigibesi n tigerlily.. :)

I'm more matured now since i gain lots of experience from those guys out there.. thanx coz came into mylife and walking out from mylife with lots of memories! :D appreciate it yaw!! (^_^)

since I have 1 year  and a half to be in the university, I need to struggle to get the best result in order to pursue my study and proved to someone out there that I can be a successful person too although i'm dont have CAR to bring me here and there...

InsyaAllah I will try my best Mama and Abah!

to all my frenz, wish all of U good luck and let's do our best here! :D

Ya Allah..dengarlah doaku ini...

Andai kau tahu. aku juga harap kau tahu.
Aku mengharapkanmu menjadi teman hidupku 


Namun aku tidak boleh menjamin apa-apa. 
Bukan aku yang menulis di Luh Mahfuz sana. tapi DIA.
DIA ,Allah yang menjadikan dirimu dan diriku, di tanganNya itu sudah tertulis takdir kita yang kita tidak ketahui.


InsyaAllah Jodoh tidak akan lari jika sudah memang ditakdirkan kita bersama
Biarpun beribu  insan bergelar lelaki datang melamar ku,
InsyaAllah dirimu tetap untukku,
Jika itu yang Allah kehendaki.


Jodoh itu seperti rezeki.
Dan ku amat berharap dirimulah akan menjadi rezeki terindah dari Allah buatku..
Namun ku insan yang tiada daya dan upaya melainkan kekuatan yang segalanya datang dariNya


Ku mohon sungguh Ya Allah,
Kuatkanlah imanku dan imannya..
Jika dia benar untukku, 
Maka dekatkanlah hatiku dengan hatinya di jalan Mu,
Jika dia bukan untukku,
damaikanlah hatiku dengan ketentuan Mu

Mmm..mmm..mmm....

Yeah! today's paper not so easy and not so tough..Thank you Allah for helping me with the ideas.. (^_^)

While waiting for Miss Gigibesi outside the hall, I was wondering if I could see HIM again..although just for a second at the campus.. Damn! Damn! Damn! Wish you were here standing right next to me and hear what I want to say about my patho nervous paper just now and wish you ask how I'm going thru my day without any news from you..Is there's a cupid want to help me out there?? Miss u Dear... :(
Don't you feel the same?? **berangan jak ko Miss Paus! org tu sudah dimiliki...jgn diganggu kebahagiaannya..

Going back to my hometown without you..As you know, I already promised grandma n grandpa to bring you along..*this is their wish before going to Mecca..* How I want to say that you not with me anymore?? Oh Allah please give strength to me so that I would be able to give a big smile for them while asking about you my Dear..

Now is the forth day I didn't text you since I already change my phone number and deactivate my fB account..Using the old number make me sad while I always keep hoping for your message n call day by day..

For my Miss Gigibesi n TigerLilY...wish you happy with your beloved couple..(^_~)
I'm happy for both of you my dear frenz since I didn't get the chance to be loved...

** I wish it's ur call and messages when my phone beep...
** I wish i can see ur smile along all day....
** I wish i can spend all the time only with u, just two of us....
** I wish u know my strong feelings toward u....
** I wish i can get through ur heart....
** I wish there are space for me to stay in ur heart even it is small for me....
** I wish u can love me as i love u....
** I wish u're mine.... even it's impossible to happen.... =(

sorry if i'm a bit emo lately but this is what I feel right now...just hope for a better day tomorrow.. bye2~

stanza cinta

oh penangan cerita ni akhirnya berjaya menistiskan air mata yg ku pendam sejak hari ahad lepas..huhuh...

sebalik tu,ending citer ni mmg sedih pon..tp kesempatan ni cik paus amik utk nangis puas2...

Pulangkan semula bju Mr.S melalui khidmat tigerLily..maaf menyusahkan anda tigerlilY..huhuh..terima kasih ye..jasa anda bersama big cat tidak akn dilupakan sama sekali..

jujurnya,rindu kt dia sgt sgt sgt sgt... :'(

nk bertembung kt campus mmg hampeh same sekali la kan tp ati ni kuat cakap jgn la npak dia kalau x nak bersedih lg..kena kuat semangat..chaiyok cik paus! u can go through this situation with a big smile on your cute little face... :) yeah! that's my girL.. (^_^)

pelok bantal kuat2, ingat dia melalui kenangan2 yg ade...alhamdulillah terubat rindu di hati ni..

Sy kuat! sy boleh! sy yakin!

ok,tu je nk bebel mlm2 nih...bye2 peeps!

final exam

first paper done!

Hope i did well although i have time to daydreaming while answering the paper..hahaha..

next is nervous system..chaiyok2!!

sleepy..not enough sleep last night since i keep thinking of him.. *sigh*

come on la girl..u can see him more happy after this..just go on with urlife k.. :) *pujuk diri sendiri*

for u Mr.S! this song especially for u.. malay quote says, "biar jauh di mata tp dekat di hati.."

that's all for today..okbai~ ^^

should be me?

For this time being,my entry would be like reading a sad terrible broken heart novel.. As I'm not good at expressing my thought to others, this is the way how I'm telling you what I feel..

BEFORE,it is me...AFTER,should be her...

Pasrah..redha...terima je lah..

Understand me...please... :'(

Please Allah...Make me a strong GirL...

Ya ALLAH..
Ajarkan aku KEIKHLASAN..
Ajarkan aku bagaimana MENERIMA..
Dan ajarkan aku tentang KELAPANGAN dada..
Ya ALLAH,jika dia ditakdirkn menjadi milikku dan jika dia pergi dariku..
Izinkan aku mampu MENAHAN diriku..
Saat diri pilu..jiwa terpukul dan terluka..ku yakin itu adalah UJIAN dariMU..
Redhakanlah Ya ALLAH jiwa ini atas segala keputusanMU..
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin..


this entry dedicated to you my Dear..

as I said to you long time before, "when you need me but do not want me,then I must stay..when you want me BUT no longer need me,then I have to go.."

Dear,

I'm totally hurt you know..but I pretend like nothing happens since I want to be 'tough' in front of you. Everything gonna be just fine when you are not around after this. I'll be independent and protecting myself..

How I want to explain to you Dear?? What you expect from me Dear?? For me, seeing you happy and keep smilling are enough to tell me that you are happy with me BUT...You have her now...As a quote said, "if u love two peoples at one time,choose the second because if you really love the first,you wouldn't fall for the second.."

I'm getting away from you..As this will give you chance to concentrate on her..giving you space and time together..I don't want peoples keep saying that I'm snatching someone else boyfriend..I'm not that kind of person..She needs you Dear..I can be alone...Bring all our memories together with me.. It is hard for me to forget you but I will try to...for your own good..for your happiness...for YOU n HER...

Relationship is like a broken glass..just left it into pieces if it only will make you hurt by touching it..